He is. He always was, He always will be.
He is the inexplicable, all-loving God. His capacity for love and His capacity for pain are both greater than my finite human mind could ever hope to grasp. He can experience both at once and not break because He is the great I AM.
And right now, nothing in the universe is more comforting to me than the knowledge that the great I AM is Love and is present.
"At that time, declares the Lord, I will be the God of all the clans of Israel, and they shall be my people. Thus says the LORD: 'The people who survived the sword found grace in the wilderness; when Israel sought for rest, the LORD appeared to him from far away. I have loved you with an everlasting love; therefore I have continued my faithfulness to you.'
"For the Lord has ransomed Jacob and has redeemed him from hands too strong for him.
"'I will turn their mourning into joy; I will comfort them, and give them gladness for sorrow. I will feast the soul of the priests with abundance, and my people shall be satisfied with my goodness,' declares the LORD."
Jeremiah 31: 1-3, 11, 13-14