I didn't have a very good day at work today. It was rough. Then I had to go to our last SA event of the year, which wasn't bad, but I think I ended up having an allergic reaction. Words that I would use to describe today are: intense, draining, awful, encouraging, itchy, dreadful, and deep. In any case, when I finally got home, my mind was entirely too engaged in processing the day and pulling out the profoundness that I knew was lurking about to go to sleep. This is what I wrote.
Your Heart
I prayed that you'd show me your heart today-- I wanted to feel as you do. I asked for your love in my heart to stay, So others would now feel love too.
Now I'm at work on the hospital floor, My patients are all very sick. I do what I can, but want to do more; My heart is as heavy as brick.
One patient rejects me, turns a cold heart, He's had quite enough of this place. He chose to dislike me right from the start, He sees not my hurt, tear-streaked face.
Another one lies there, dying in pain; He struggles with each ragged breath. Tears freely flow as I hear the man strain, My heart now feels shattered by death.
Your heart was too much for my heart to bear, The burden of love was too strong. Please comfort my heart; this is my new prayer. Please don't stay away for too long.
So far, I think this is my favorite that I've written this semester. But I have another favorite that's still in my head and may soon displace this one if I ever write it. Anyway, I'd like to hear your thoughts and comments, and perhaps I'll explain my point if people don't get this.
He Loves Me
Melodies crescendo out my window-- Birds call me from my peaceful sleep. Sunshine cheer wakes from orange shades deep And glows on dewdrops below. He loves me.
I wake and rise-- unseeing, not hearing-- And hurry through my morning routine. Leaving home, I am fresh and clean, But callous and unfeeling. I love Him not.
Wind swirls the leaves, begging my attention. He whispers in my ears, "Love me. Please." Sun filters through crocheted lace leaves-- Dances in brilliant motion. He loves me.
My life's in focus and my goals in view. I busy myself with work and things, Ignoring all the joy He brings-- His love seen as nothing new. I love Him not.
He is untiring, always persistent As day after day He still pursues With hopes one day my love ensues. He is steady and constant. He loves me.